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Book Review - If You Stay (Beautifully Broken, #1) by Courtney Cole

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

24-year old Pax Tate is an asshole.

He’s a tattooed, rock-hard bad-boy with a bad attitude to match.

But he’s got his reasons.

His mother died when Pax was seven, leaving a hole in his heart filled with guilt although he doesn’t understand why. What he does know is that he and his dad are left alone and with more issues than they can count.

As Pax grew up, he tried to be the kid his father always wanted; the perfect golden boy, but it didn’t work. His dad couldn’t overcome his grief long enough to notice and Pax couldn’t keep up the impossible perfect fa├žade.
So he slipped far, far from it.

Now, he uses drugs and women to cope with the ugliness, the black void that he doesn’t want to deal with. If he pretends that the emptiness isn’t there, then it isn’t, right?

And it’s never more apparent than when he meets Mila.
Sweet, beautiful Mila Hill is the fresh air to his hardened frown, the beauty to his ugly heart. He doesn’t know how to not hurt her, but he quickly realizes that he’s got to figure it out because he needs her to breathe.

When memories of his mother’s death resurface from where he’s repressed them for so long, Mila is there to catch him when the guilt starts making sense. Mila is the one…the one who can save him from his broken troubled heart; from his issues, from the emptiness.

But only if he can stop being an asshole long enough to allow it.

He knows that. And he’s working on it.

But is that enough to make her stay?

I Must say that Courtney Cole sure knows how to pull a reader in . The first chapter of this book Pulled me in feet first and I did not stop until I was done with the ride . This story is full of emotion , it is raw, it will make you laugh , it will make you shed a tear or two . but in the end I can promise that you will be happy .

The story starts with Pax , Asshole , tattooed , Bad ass attitude , and rock hot body to die for . Pax's mom Died when he was 7 yrs old ,and Pax appears to have never dealt with the loss of his mother , he copes with emotions with drugs, and alcohol , and more drugs ... He is not a drug addict though. he can stop when ever he wants , but he doesn't have a need to stop , so he continues to use drugs , until he Overdoses and almost dies .

“I can’t let you break my heart. I don’t have much of it left.”

Enter Mila , artist , Heart of gold, Lost her own parents a few yrs back due to a car accident , all she has now is her sister . One night she is at the beach taking pictures of the water and sky . As she ventures back to her car she hears a buzzing sound and discovers that there is a man in a car slumped over and out cold , vomit all over him , breathing erratic . She does the only thing she can do when she can't bring him to she calls 911 . Mila saved Pax's life that night .....

“You’ve seen me at my worst. Maybe you should see me at my best.”
My words hang between us, heavy and charged, and I don’t know what the fuck I am doing.
“When are you at your best?” she asks hesitantly. And I can see from the determined look on her face that she is trying hard not to feel intimidated. I’m impressed. She’s like a kitten standing up to a lion.
“In bed.”

Reading the relationship from the start to the end of Pax and Mila was an amazing journey of Love, hope, redemption, and a whole lot of raw emotion. I love how we got to get inside of Pax's head and take the journey with him towards redemption and dealing with his emotions and stress. Mila was amazing in her own sweet way with helping him and being there with him through it all the way to the end and beyond ....

"Love Never Fails "

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1 comment:

  1. Loved this book...worth the read. Adored Pax & Mila